my life. God's story.

Five teenagers stand under a speckled sky, staring up at the light-years beyond them. We wish upon a shooting star or two as we talk of college plans and big decisions and the goodness of God and how much we want to live these short lives well.

I can't help but feel tiny under the weight of this massive universe. Here I am with friends from around the country--Georgia, Alaska, Washington, and Arkansas. All of us wonder what God wants to do with our lives. All of us have no idea where we'll end up. All of us want to live all for Him.

Staring at these tiny dots that each are massive stars and galaxies named by God, I'm reminded that while my story comes to an end shortly, God's is eternal. And I long to be a part of His grand story, the dramatic plot of the gospel. I want my life to be about advancing the cause of the invading King who's little by little pursuing hearts and growing His Kingdom on earth and will one day take it over completely and establish His perfect rule.

I don't want to waste my 2/5-of-a-second long life on things that are as small as I am.

But that lifestyle doesn't begin with some big decision. It doesn't start when I decide where to go to college. It starts today when I decide whether to get up earlier to spend some time talking to this King. It starts today when I don't feel like helping with the dishes or laundry. It starts today when I have to choose whether to spend this moment for Him or indulge my flesh.

Living for Jesus is a daily choice. So day by day, I want to follow Him. Some days that may mean leading highschool students at TeenPact. Some days that may mean playing with my little sisters. Some days that may mean making big decisions about college.

But regardless, Lord, here is my life, my days, my moments. Tune my heart into the bigger picture of what You're doing, Your grand kingdom story.