living real life

"Yesterday I started a month without any internet and reading the Bible through in a month. Honestly, it's been really tough. Especially going without internet. I often feel lonely or bored or a little empty. I'm still not exactly sure what God's going to teach me through this, but I'm praying that He will use it to work on me."

- 7. 16. 10

"One thing I'm realizing though is that the internet wasn't at the root of the problem of wasting time. It was my laziness. The internet was a means that I used to fritter away my time, but taking it away hasn't been a magic ticket to using my time wisely. It still takes effort and work to invest my time in things that matter."

- 7.16.10

"One reason, I'm finding, that I love internet is because internet feeds my desire for self-glorification. It gives me the affirmation and attention I so badly want...I don't like doing lowly jobs when I'm the only person that notices. So facebook and gmail serve as great tools to get that attention. But, those out of the way, I find less distractions from the little things in life--singing for a lady dying of Alzheimers, laughing so hard with my dad that we were both crying because of my crazy attempts at driving the clutch, making a smoothie at 10:30 at night with Les...And I have a feeling that looking back, these are the moments I'm going to remember best.

'Enjoy the little things in life, because one day you will look back and realize they were the big things.'"

- 7.17.10

"What first seemed a down-side to having no internet has actually turned out to be one of the richest blessings for me. I started this past week lonely, bored, and disconnected. And sure, I don't talk to quite as many people and not as often, but I've had better conversations on the phone and by letter with a number of my friends than I had with them over facebook or chat. The last few days have been a sweet time for me."

- 7.22.10